stickyfeathers

hello, november.

wow.  it's november.  i've got a ton of blogging to catch up on (all things halloween).  but first, i've got something else to talk about.

november is nablopomo (nationalblog posting month).  if you participate, the goal is to blog every single day in november.  i'm in.  some bloggy friends of mine have also dubbed november the batoblomo (back to blogging movement).  there are a ton of bloggers (that i read) participating in each.  november is going to be a fun and busy month!

so, i've got a ton of things to get done tonight (thank you daylight savings for this extra hour).  i watched 'transformers: revenge of the fallen' tonight and it consumed me and wasted 150 minutes of my life.  but i loved it.  still, the laundry, dishes, editing, and the rest of the disaster house is calling my name tonight.

but don't worry, i'll be back here tomorrow.  :)

i'll tell you what is going on.

today, i stayed home with tucker.  last night he basically kept me up all night hacking coughing (the kind of cough where you cough until you gag and puke).  yeah, it was fun.  add his coughing to my insomnia and you have a lovely evening.  i was just praying it didn't turn into anything worse (still praying). 

so, this morning i'm on the phone with a co-worker figuring out some work things and i tell her, 'i don't know what's going on'.  to which tucker (who is laying in bed next to me) pipes up and replies, 'i'll tell you what's going on.  i'm sick!' ... i almost died. 

a few minutes later, he realizes he is only in his pull-up (night diaper - whatever).  he asks me where his clothes are.  i tell him that i took them off last night when he puked on them.  he replies, 'oh yeah'.  i then ask him if i can get him some clothes to wear.  he then answers, 'i don't think you can handle that'.  ARE YOU KIDDING ME KID?  where does he come up with this stuff?

other random things he has said today:

'you're nuts.  like coconuts.'

'thank you for taking care of me mom.'

'dad, you're the best daddy in the whole wide world.'

'mom, the dinosaurs in the woods died two years ago.'

everything he drew or made today was 'BEEEU-TEEE-FUUUL'
... love how he says it.

and my personal favorite which he said about 5 times today:

'mom, you're the best mommy in the whole wide world.'  :)

i'm hoping tonight goes better than last night.  matt is home tomorrow so that's nice.  it's friday - thank heavens!  i'm ready for this week to be over.  one week closer to feeling like myself again!  i'm so excited for the weekend.  tucker is so excited for halloween.  i like that it is on a saturday this year - no rushing after work to get out and get trick-or-treating!  we are going out on saturday too.  the first night i've been out in MONTHS.  i made my costume so that should be fun.  i'm also hoping i feel like a normal person when we go out!  i think some jerky from the muni will totally help that.  :)

a little too much tv ... or something.

i recently bought tucker the movie 'monsters vs. aliens'.  he loves it.  we rented it one night when natalie stayed over and he actually watched the entire movie.  then, i forgot to delete it off our netflix queue and we got it again.  good thing there are no late fees because we had it for two weeks.  that's before i just finally purchased it.  so, the other night, tucker is sitting on the couch and he's opening up the dvd case.  inside, he finds a chuckie cheese coupon.  this conversation ensues:

tucker: MOM! it's chuckie cheese! (as he waves the coupon in the air)
me: yep! it is. (no chuckie cheese within like 200 miles of us, so i show little interest)
tucker: mom, chuckie cheese is a proud sponsor of mickey mouse clubhouse.
me: uh wha?

sure enough, chuckie cheese IS a proud sponsor of mickey mouse clubhouse.

then, last night, we were playing around in the living room.  all of a sudden tucker yells, 'i'm going to send a robot probe to CRUSH you mom!'  now, if you've watched 'monsters vs. aliens', you'll know what these robot probes are.  and yes, my kid advised me he was going to send one to CRUSH me.  lovely.

even if he is going to send robot probes after me, i still love him to pieces.  :)

introducing ... my baby bean.

my first appointment went really well yesterday.  well, all except having to jump on the scale and having to be poked twice to get the six liters of blood they needed for running tests.  :)

obviously, the best part of the entire appointment was when i got to see my little baby bean.  and there was just one little baby bean in there.  i was holding my breath for the first few seconds until things were completely in focus.  ha!  then i saw it.  and the little heart just a beating away.  aaaah.  loved it.

 

my due date is set for june 4.  two days before my birthday.  yey!

i changed doctors and had a great talk with the nurse practitioner.  i'm a 'healthy gal', except for the pre-term labor/delivery with tucker.  just means this time they will keep a closer eye on things.  i go back in four weeks for my next appointment.  in 12 weeks i can find out what the little baby bean is.  and yes, we will be finding out what it is.  this girl wants to be ready!

when i got home, i showed tucker the picture's from the ultrasound.  then i showed him my first ultrasound shots with him (which i still actually have framed).  i got to show him how he started out and how his little baby sibling is starting out.  i was referring to the baby as a little bean while we talked.  then, he asked, 'mom, is the baby inside the bean?' ... yes, it is buddy.  :) 

i just want to thank all you guys for all your comments, your encouragement and advice.  you guys totally rock.  totally. 

crazy talk.

tomorrow is my first doctor's appointment.  i'm SO excited.  i'll finally get to hear a heartbeat.  i'll get to see that first picture of my little bean.  i'll get to weigh in.  i'll get to give urine and blood.  oh yey!  okay, maybe not so excited about weighing in or giving urine and blood, but the rest will be fun.  i also am looking forward to an 'official' due date. 

so far, this pregnancy has been completely different than the first.  tonight when matt and i were talking, he said he thinks i'm having twins.  i almost slapped the silly out of him!  then he reminded me that it runs on both sides of his family.  GO ME.  i told him i only believe there is one little bean in there.  so, anyways, tomorrow is the day we find out who is right.  i'd love to think that just because this pregnancy SO FAR is different that means it could be a girl (because really, i'd love that), but it might just be a different pregnancy (because they all are) and it could be a boy (and that would be cool too).  it never once entered my mind until tonight when matt started talking that there might be TWO in there.  i highly doubt it, but how freaking crazy would that be?  CRAZY.

so, i can't wait to post tomorrow to tell you all about my first appointment.  it will feel so different, yet so familiar i'm sure.  and hopefully i will have the little babe's first picture to share with you!

here is a question i'm going to leave for all of you mom's out there:  where did you get your maternity clothes?  what was your favorite store and/or brand (if you had one)?  i see all kinds of cute maternity clothes but i never know where these mommies-to-be are getting their clothes.  i need your help internet.  if i'm going to be large, i want to try to look cute.  when i was pregnant with tucker, i swear i hit up target and motherhood and who knows if i even went anywhere else.  sad.  or maybe not?  i don't know.  please help!

the comeback kid.

so, i've been slacking on the blog for the last few months.  i think i've mentioned that a time or two on here.  but have no fear blog readers, i'm making a comeback. 

in november, it's national blog posting month (nablopomo) and i'm all about taking care of business.  it's something i can cross off my big list.  speaking of the big list, my friend jen mentioned that i needed to update things over there, so i did.  i'm getting things done!  :)  anyways, if you plan to do get your nablopomo on, let me know.  i know nicole had mentioned it on her blog - and it's fun to know who is taking on the challenge of posting. every. single. day.

fairy godmother.

dear fairy godmother,

i'm sure you have been busy turning pumpkins into carriages or mice into horses, but i need you bad.  i've got a long list of things that a little magic fairy dust could help with.  i hope you don't mind, but i've made you a list of things that i desperately need to have done.  you can swing by when i'm working, napping, sleeping ... whenever you can find the time.  i'll be forever grateful. 

here are my wishes in no particular order:

1. i think our washing machine is about to die.  could you pour some fairy dust in it to give it a few more months? years?  if not, could you do a little homework on consumer reports and find the best (and cheapest) front loading machine there is? 
2. same goes for the fridge.  i would prefer a fridge that had a freezer on the bottom.  oh, and it should be black.
3. i need a new computer and a desk ... oh, and some actual office space while you're at it.  do you think my husband would think i'm crazy if i wanted to make the entire garage into an office and then he could just transport all his tools and gear and whatnot around in the back of his truck?  hmmm.  i think he would have me committed.  if you have an idea for office space at my house, just send me a memo.  oh, and i wouldn't mind if you had to consult with the team from extreme makeover: home edition.  feel free to let them come in and bulldoze this entire place down to make room for what i NEED.
4. i need to purge tucker's toys.  if you could just take care of this for me, it would save me a lot of worries.  does he play with this toy?  will he miss that toy?  should i keep this toy?  can i throw that toy?  oh, and after purging them, can you organize them real nice and pretty? 
5. can you figure out a way to get everything that is in my bedroom into tucker's room?  because we have to switch rooms, make our bedroom into two (for this next child) and i'm a little worried about how all things are going to fit.  i just can't picture things and cramped areas make me twitch.  again, if you need to consult with extreme makeover, i totally understand. 
6. i need a new wardrobe, so if you just want to sprinkle a little fairy dust on my closet, that would be very much appreciated.  shoes included.  and jackets.  and accessories.
7. i need to be pampered (new haircut, pedicure, massage). 
8. do you perform house cleaning services?  if not, do you have cinderella's number?
9. are you close with father time?  if so, ask him how we could squeak some more time into the weekends.  this would improve moral and i might even have enough time to help you out with some of my wishes. 
10. a good night's sleep.  any way you can give it to me, i'll take it. 

i think this should keep you busy enough for now.  if you get bored, just cook some dinners (to freeze) and some cookies (for me), and i'll put together my next wish list.

thanks much!
jen

like standing in the rain.

i've been reading posts all over blogland talking about how other moms are feeling overwhelmed.  i relate.  this past week i've stepped away from my computer (and certain obligations) more to take time for me (and either sleep so the gagginess would subside or eat and watch dvr hoping the gagginess would subside).  however, during that i feel like i've let some things slip a little further behind (thank you clients for being understanding, thank you husband for taking care of me, thank you nabisco for saltine crackers - whoops, that one just jumped in there).  i have figured out exactly what all this feels like.

it feels like i'm standing in the rain.  and every single raindrop feels like something i have to get done.  some of the raindrops fall to the ground.  some soak into my clothes and i'll get to them soon before they dry up, and some sit on my nose and wait for me to take care of them.  and dude, i'm in a heavy rainstorm.  in seattle.  i swear.

each night i try to make a list of ten things i need to get done.  frick, it doesn't always happen, but i try.  this week i slacked off on making lists, but i'm back.  i had a diet coke this afternoon and i swear it gave me some crazy dose of holymolyicandoanythingtonight.  that stuff is powerful.

i've been slacking in blogland, mommyland, wifeland, friendland, meland, maidland, and photoland.  it's time to pop out my umbrella and not let the raindrops bring me down.  i can only do so much in a day.  i need to relax and just do each job the best i can.  oh, and it would help if i could find a good cleaning service in town.  anyone know of one? 

sorry about the rant of a post. 
it felt good to get out.

thoughts for thursday.

this isn't a typical thoughts for thursday post.  this is basically going to be me, dumping all my thoughts about currently being pregnant.  i KNOW you are thrilled.  i need to document this.  so if you're not all into the pregnancy talk, you can just click over to facebook right now.  :)

all i remember from being pregnant with tucker was that things were all rainbows and butterflies until the night i went into labor (seven weeks early).  i was only sick once after eating some bad apricots and even then, it wasn't bad.  puking up fruit isn't horrible, it's actually pretty ... fruity.  so there you have it.  a great pregnancy where i finally swelled up like a tick and popped.  tucker was healthy.  i was alive.  life was good.

hello, second pregnancy!  which i'm like BARELY into.  you're going to get sick of this because i'm not starting another blog to talk about all things pregnancy.  i'm slacking on this one so what better way to get some content going than to complain about being prego!  :)  kidding.  i'm excited, but can i just have my baby already?  thankyouverymuch.

i wake up feeling all gaggy.  not like i'm going to puke, but not like normal.  gross.  i try to ignore it while i get ready for work.  i usually grab breakfast on the go and then i'm good.  until i feel icky again.  then i feel like i have to eat again.  then i feel icky for eating.  then i feel gaggy for not eating.  and repeat.  and repeat.  is this what they call 'morning/evening/all day sickness'?  i have been advised to take some ginger.  i'll let you know how that goes tomorrow.  i know i could have it much much worse by puking multiple times daily.  so pregnancy gods, thank you for not throwing that goodness my way.

question: when is it acceptable to wear maternity clothes?  because i'm chubby and this gaggy feeling just makes me feel even grosser (is that a word?).  my wardrobe currently sucks so i'm looking forward to not gaining a kagillion pounds and actually being able to pull off some cute maternity stuff.  however, i started wearing maternity stuff last time around 20 weeks - maybe earlier with the pants, but dude.  can i get a stretchy waist band right now?  who would know (besides everyone reading this or inspecting my waistband)?  i just realized this paragraph took away most of my pride.  frick.  for the record, i just want to say i can still throw a mean hook at kickboxing.  YES, i'm doing kickboxing because i need somewhere to try to work off the bagillion calories i'm taking in daily.  and it makes me feel good.  and sore.  damn kickboxing.  if my doctor tells me to stop, i will.  however, don't they usually encourage exercise when pregnant? 

i'm exhausted.  i go to bed earlier than matt now on the weekends (which is basically unheard of).  i want to nap basically all day long.  i do nap with tucker on the weekends.  both days.  for a minimum of two hours.  which basically rocks my world.  however, that means things are being neglected.  is there an energy shot i can get?  i've kicked my love of diet coke to the curb so maybe it's just withdrawals from that? 

this is the boring stage of pregnancy.  i don't see the doctor until october 23.  i won't have my official due date until the appointment.  i won't even meet with the doctor during the first visit, it's just the nurse practitioner.  i still am excited to bounce some of my questions off her (i've been making a list).  then, i won't know what i'm having until like january and gosh, that seems like light years away!  pink or blue?  i'm going to need to know. 

so, right now i'm just well, slowly forming a baby. 
and dude, that's hard work.  :)

the funny things.

tucker is full of the good stuff lately.  the stuff that makes you smile and want to hit the rewind button on life.  i figure i better hurry up and get some of it written down before i (too often) forget.

on saturday morning, he did something and i told him he was so smart.  to which he replied, 'yeah, and you're not'.  great, i didn't think he would question my intelligence until he was in his teens. 

later that afternoon, as we drove through town, we seen a deer running down the road.  it ran off into the church yard where tucker got a good look at it from the backseat and said with the most serious voice, 'let's kill it'.  needless to say, matt was proud of his little future hunter.

we've been gone quite a bit lately and my mom (who is out of town working) will leave messages for tucker on the answering machine.  it kills me every time because he runs over to the machine and engages in a ... um ... conversation with her.  this is the funniest thing ever and i HAVE to get this on video.

this shot is of tucker and his cousin, chloe.  i took it a couple weeks ago when we went to visit.

 

tucker does not like this shot because 'she had her ARM around me MOM'.  then he demonstrates it as if i can't tell by looking at the picture.  what a dork.  they sat like this forever and he wasn't fighting it so i think he's full of blue mud.  personally, i love this shot of the two of them.  they are like two pea's in a pod when they are together.

he tells us that if we drive fast, the cops will come.  and i SWEAR i've never been pulled over with him in the car.  the kid just has his facts straight.

he pays attention to commercials on and when it's something he wants, he makes sure to tell us.  i always nod my head and tell him i'm putting it on 'the list'.  that works until we get to target and he remembers what is on his 'list'.  dude, the kid forgets nothing!  the last thing on the list was this diego rescue pack.  well, i can't find it in the store, so tucker advised me that SANTA will find it because he has ALL the good toys.  NICE. 

there are a million other little things, but these were a few of them on my mind.